I’m beginning my fitness journal… yes one more time. But this time, let me put it this way, IT HAS TO BE DIFFERENT !!!!.
I’ve been struggling with my weight for around 2 years, and I have tried it all, and when I say all, it is all.
This time I was like – ok girl you need to do this, it’s now or never! I started with small goals – more achievable and realistic goals – and also I decided not to weigh myself; I decided to use pictures to see my progress. Boy, I was so excited to see my results at the end of my first 4 weeks of my new fitness journey, and the day came. I had spent the last 4 weeks training my… life out… so hard, and eating super clean, that I was 100% sure the results were going to start to show! My husband was my witness, I was not kidding around – this time was for real. And then I took the photos…..and there was NO visible progress! ☹ And then the tears…. yes the TEARS, a lot of tears… Some of you are probably asking why. Well I’m guilty – I’m guilty of being brainwashed by this society that tells you how a woman is supposed to look. Believe me, it’s something that I’m working on. It’s not that I want to be skin-and-bones – I want to look fit and healthy – but I do want to lose the weight I’ve been gaining for the last 2 years.
Don’t get me wrong, I was not waiting for the craziest results after 4 weeks, but I was waiting for something, and I could swear that my after pictures looked a little worse :(.
What is happening?!! This time my husband was as surprised as I was, he saw all my effort. Something is not adding up…
I’m a petite person, and it’s not that I’m overweight, but my clothes are not fitting the way they used to, and this has affected me emotionally in a really deep way – I never thought this could affect me so deeply. I know that with age your body changes, but really I’m doing everything that I can to be healthy and something is not working.
Currently I’m in my 6th week (well it’s really 7, but for the holidays I’ve been doing my week 6 workouts for 2 weeks) and I’m still not seeing any results. So I made an appointment with a doctor to see if maybe it’s a hormonal imbalance causing my weight gain, and then I’ll go from there.
This journey is just beginning, and it’s so hard to stay motivated when there are no results. But I’ll continue, because like I said earlier, it’s now or never; I need to figure what is happening with my body, so I can become the healthiest version of myself.
Why am I being so honest? Well first of all, because that’s the whole point of having a blog, write from the honesty of your heart, your mind and soul, and also because I know I’m not alone. I know that there are some of you having the same battle, and maybe sharing this will help you, and will help me.
This is me, this is my reality, this is my struggle – one of many- I’m a woman trying to figure out how to be healthy, how to understand my body, how to love myself a little more everyday. And even though in the mirror I can’t see any results reflected, I can see progress in other ways, so I know this is not a hopeless battle:
- I reduced my intake of coffee from a cup a day to 2 cups a week.
- I’m drinking more than 1 liter of water daily.
- I don’t get sore so easily anymore.
- I have improved my headstands.
- My yoga level has improved amazingly.
- I’m doing some physical activity 6 days out of the week.
Little steps, one at a time.
Stay tuned for more 😉
and of course a song: